Journeys of a 69 Soulful Woman….

   
       I turned 69 years old on March this year. I did not give it much thought because I was busy, always busy… with so many things until I resigned from a work I love to do for the past 22 years. It also served as my advocacy. It entailed working with people in all walks and status in life. What I appreciate most is dealing with the young professionals. They have made me feel young.

     I like keeping up with them in terms of vitality and energy. They inspired me to go on and on and on. I have to see to it that they don’t reach the point wherein they will call me beyond being a TITA. So I remained a TITA to all of them. I never thought about my age except when strands of white hair peep out of my lustrous hair. I consider my hair the best part of my body with my youthful skin coming second and sometimes a good figure. Ah, well I manage to hide its imperfections by avoiding tight blouses and shirts.

     My problem started to show up after I resigned from my work. The first month was a mixture of feeling of relief and a very strong emotional feeling of loss. Away from a work I‘ve had for 22 years and away from my friends.

      I would console myself by saying now I have all the time to clear up my clutter. Cleaning up my clutter didn’t help because they only reminded me of the work I left behind. Sometimes I find myself feeling angry, happy, frustrated and sometimes hopeful. These emotions hanged on for 3 long months. When I can’t stand it anymore, I started shaking myself and asked, WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO YOURSELF?  

      What happened to all the values and principles you have been espousing all these years?